Just speaking my mind…

Just speaking my mind…

http://convictsoapbox.com/2015/04/26/just-speaking-my-mind/
By Demond A. Jackson
“God so love the world that he sacrifice his only begotten son..”
If that’s not love… then I don’t know what else to call it. God creates a world, and his love for that creation is so great. That he’s willing to sacrificing his son life so that world can flourish and grow. For some strange reason my analytical mind can’t help but try to figure out God’s reasoning for this decision. One thing for sure this world and all that walks, crawl, flies, swim and lives on it was worthy of the child that was deem the messiah.
That being said, was God teaching mankind through his own unselfish act that no man life is unworthy of sacrifice when it come to the betterment of the world? I personal believer in a higher power. I see the universe and everything in it as a creation of pure perfection of a divine mind. Even with all the unexplainable wonders in the universe at the end of the day man come to discover that there is a logical purpose for all things.
As I continue to grow mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically my current circumstance becomes less and less a major hurdle for me. (I’m not saying getting out of prison isn’t my #1 priority.) What I am saying is each day that I wake up, blessed to be alive, in the darkness of a four cornered room, while I sit patiently waiting for my door to be unlocked, preparing myself for the familiar unexpected event that take place in prison I have one thought on my mind; ” I must maintain and instill peace amongst men today.”  I’ve come to the understanding that this is my purpose.. no matter how hard I try to avoid it, ignore it and relinquish it. It just keeps fallen in my lap.
The heaven know there’s days I wish I could be the inconsiderate, immoral child of God whom path seems far more easier than mine. Then suddenly I hear a voice in my head saying: “God sacrificed his only begotten son, surely your time and consideration is worth sacrificing!”
Before I started writing this composition today, hurt and frustration was trying to consume me, because there’s nothing I want do for the people I love and the thought of their constant inability to do the same for me was bothering. But like clock work that voice said: “I gave my only begotten son and look how so many refuse to sacrifice their selfish desires to do as ‘I WILL’ including you!”
In an instant my hurt and frustrations were removed. How could I be mad! The majority of the world is failing to sacrifice their time and consideration for God. Yet God so loves this world, that he continues to sacrifice the lives of men and women who’s purpose on this earth is to uplift mankind, spread peace and be the voice of God even when the majority of mankind fails to do the same. A few days ago a stranger stop me on the yard and said:
” D-jay, you are one of the realest dudes I’ve met in the B.O.P.” I was caught off guard.
“Why”
“I ain’t going to tell  why but I saw you do something and couldn’t help but say to myself. that’s a real dude right there.”
A week ago I needed some stamps to mail off a hobby project and without me asking my celli step in the room and handed me a book of stamps. I’m reminded of these tokens of consideration as I write, making me see that I am blessed to be alive and I should never question God’s plan, therefore I’m just speaking my mind.
Much love and respect to you all…